I have women friends, can talk to women (but just talk, like normal conversation - not talk in a "cool" way with teasing and flirting/sexual innuendo and all that, I don't do that).
And I've kissed before, but no one that I really wanted to kiss so it wasn't that great. For all intents and purposes I might as well be considered kissless too.
And as far as I know I've never been the subject of a crush either. I was asked out once or twice but I don't know how authentic that was, the person may have just been looking for a rebound guy because they had both broken up not that long before, and I didn't go for it because I wasn't interested in/attracted to these women anyway.
The thing that really gets me is, when it comes to the women I've liked (which have mostly changed since I got to this site, only one is still the same), I don't know how close or how far I was to being attractive to them, or if there was ever anything at all I could have done to have a chance, ever anything I could have done, said, thought of, and so on, or the right way to do all those things. And I'm talking about people that have common interests with me, and at least some common personality traits, people that I'm at least somewhat aligned with in life, NOT people that I just think are hot and know nothing else about.
I wish I could have some way of seeing if anyone really liked me ever, or if I could somehow know all of the possible people that could be attracted to me and at least know what my options are, if I have any at all.
I wish I knew what to do.