VanillaCreme said:
Crow, all the women you knew were married, why did you go on with sleeping with them anyway? Doesn't their marriage tell you to back off at all?
Dang Vanilla...
My finacee messed my best freind while I was sitting in class.
She told me she was drunk....will fresia me with a screwdriver.lol
I watched guys hitted up on ex-wf almost every other fucken
day. The curse of having a supermodel as your wife.
I was bound to make mistakes or get in an argument with her.
I remember asking her about our marriage vows.
Her words were " it went out the window " It's embeded in my mind.
Evidently the dickheads hitting up on my wife didn't give a rats
ass either.
After i sobered up...got into recovery.
My GF of 5 years cheated on me once in the earily part of the relationship.
We worked through that. So I thought.
My last GF of 12 year..will fresia ..it's like instant fucken replay.
Not in recovery...Not especailly ..when you sober up..you clean
your self up..you clean your life and it's a fucken GOD thing.
What possible lesson or good can come out of it?
becuase I'm a strong person ?....fresia me with a heart attack !!
She said she was drunk.....I've been drunk I know what's up.
She messed a freind of mine. My sponsee to be exact.
The closest people to me...the trust, the friendship...all of that.
Loyalty...if I talk to certain people..they said that i'm fucken
codependent. I'm sort of screwed in the head with this loyalty
and codependency honeysuckle.
I've been struggling very hard to come to terms...with this.
No releave..no healing..nothing gets resolved.
She won't talk to me..she won't face any of the problems.
She pretends that I'm dead.
She holding hands and singing cumba fucken ya with GOD.
Other AA members are hitting up on her...all the while saying
I have my head up my ass...
Why especifically married women ? At least I'm not doing
it in AA...Fucken progress not perfection...
What fucken moral standard or values must i live my life by ?
Other motherfuckers dosn't.
Labling them scums...dosn't remove the pains or resolves the issuses.
I know how to fresia up too.
I know how to not give a fresia either.
God dosn't give a fresia. She dosn't give a fresia. My freinds don't give a fresia.
Give me a fucken break..like somehow it's suppose to make be a stronger person.
Yes...I know the fucken pains and heartache of infidelity. Been on the receiving end of that honeysuckle...
Think of it like...fucken karma...I'm working out some karma...
I'm your next fucken karma...Play with me.
The universe will send you the lessons when you ask for it...Hot **** here I Am.
You ask for this..you wanted this to happen. You want me...you know you do..lol
A broken heart is an open heart....God is going to touch your heart with love and happiness.
I'm Michael the fucken angle. An instrument of god. The defender faith.
I ma break down that fucken wall and show you what real love is...lmao
Nobody back the fresia off when it was my marriage or my relationship.
I swear to you...If there's a god...
Please fucken help me. Remove these fucken pains from me...i can't fucken bare them anymore.
mmm...The less i care...the less pains i feel.
kippie yI A...if someone calls me name or look down on me or whatever the fresia ...it's fucken piontless ATM.
I think all women have sexual instinks..
Dose all married women or even single women look at me or notice me ?.....Hell no.