First of all, I hope you're still well and healthy to read this.
I don't see meaning in anything. It hurts me so much to not be able to find joy in a single thing, and I miss people around me who I could tell this to without at the same time acting like I was alright.
Remember one thing: There will always be tomorrow. You might think that it will only bring more pain, but the fact is that you don't know. You can't be certain that you won't feel better the next day, no matter how messed up everything might seem. I feel like this most of the time. What I do to get past it... well, I read, I watch TV, I listen to music, I meet friends. Nothing of these activities has ever seemed to be of use in the long run. What I really do most of the time... I try to tell myself that it's alright. Call it fantasy, call it make-believe... I wanna believe that in the end it can be alright. That life is good. It helps me to endure the pain.
I'm sure you will finally find something that helps you to go on. That will even make you happy. Don't give up hope. Live for another day. Look at life. There's gotta be something else out there. Something incredibly wonderful. Just hold on. And if you ever feel like you can't go on and think death is the only way out, please seek help. The painful feelings are not you. They're may be an overwhelming part of you, but you can face it. You can be strong. You can make it.
Hope you're OK.