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Loneliness is a sneaky one, isn't she? Your sitting alone at home, evryone's gone out. "What should I do, what should I do? I know! Give someone a call- have a nice chat!" So you scroll down your contacts on your phone, there must be someone at home! As you go through the list you find yourself rolling your eyes, tutting under your breath and sighing. You've realised...I don't want to talk to a single one of these people at all, I can't stand them- I don't feel part of them, all coversations with them have been forced and all smiles fake. The only time I've spoken to any of these people for longer than ten minutes without wanting to kill myself is when I've been drunk...then I've wanted to kill myself the morning after! How did I get to this point? Why am I 'friends' with all these people I don't like-people who I don't really know and who don't really know me. What's wrong with me? Why can't I make any real friends-people I genuinely want to talk to, who I don't have to be fake with-WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!
Then before you know it you're crying, big fat ugly tears streaming down you face, you've realised it...you're lonely, so very painfully lonely! You've been lonely for ages but ignored it and now there it is, unmistakeable, undeniable and impossible to dispell: Loneliness eh? She's a sneaky one, hides in the back of your mind until the right moment and then sets up camp in the front of your mind hacking away at your self-esteem until she breaks you down. *****.
She's clever though, I'll give her that.
Then before you know it you're crying, big fat ugly tears streaming down you face, you've realised it...you're lonely, so very painfully lonely! You've been lonely for ages but ignored it and now there it is, unmistakeable, undeniable and impossible to dispell: Loneliness eh? She's a sneaky one, hides in the back of your mind until the right moment and then sets up camp in the front of your mind hacking away at your self-esteem until she breaks you down. *****.
She's clever though, I'll give her that.