Hi everyone,
Don’t really know where to start without everything I say just sounding really moany. It’s 2.45 am and I’m sat in my living room feeling so lonely which happens most nights. It’s like my second secret life that nobody knows about. My husband and children are asleep upstairs. Basically, my children are my entire world obviously but me and husband literally hardly talk. We discuss what I should do for tea and have we paid bills etc but beyond that - nothing. He kisses me bye on the cheek in the morning and that is the most physical connection I have had in 2.5 years. I mention this regularly as this side of a relationship is really important to me but nothing changes. I regularly tell him how unhappy I am and he just says “how has this all come from me not…… cleaning his hair from the drain, for example. I’ll say it’s not from that, this is how I always feel and he just rolls his eyes and walks away. I’m so desperately unhappy but can’t break our family up as I act happy around the kids and it would be terrrible for them if they knew otherwise. I really want to get myself into a happier place and in the future start going on dates and find someone who sees me. I’m stuck. Sorry moan over x
Don’t really know where to start without everything I say just sounding really moany. It’s 2.45 am and I’m sat in my living room feeling so lonely which happens most nights. It’s like my second secret life that nobody knows about. My husband and children are asleep upstairs. Basically, my children are my entire world obviously but me and husband literally hardly talk. We discuss what I should do for tea and have we paid bills etc but beyond that - nothing. He kisses me bye on the cheek in the morning and that is the most physical connection I have had in 2.5 years. I mention this regularly as this side of a relationship is really important to me but nothing changes. I regularly tell him how unhappy I am and he just says “how has this all come from me not…… cleaning his hair from the drain, for example. I’ll say it’s not from that, this is how I always feel and he just rolls his eyes and walks away. I’m so desperately unhappy but can’t break our family up as I act happy around the kids and it would be terrrible for them if they knew otherwise. I really want to get myself into a happier place and in the future start going on dates and find someone who sees me. I’m stuck. Sorry moan over x