CenotaphGirl
Under the dirt, that’s my home ⚰️
Its taken me years to accept that men have no magic wands to fix what is broken in my life…
My whole life I believed men are the answer, whenever I was sad dad would fix it, whatever i wanted he would buy it… when the women in my life picked on me the men would always rush to my rescue and my defence…
As I got older and other men wanted to take care of me… I learnt that being able to get men to do what I want made me powerful… I learnt that being able to manipulate men was like being a wizard, men made things happen…
but its men… not a man… theres only so much one man can do, I wonder if I will ever be satisfied with just one… if one can ever do enough? What is enough? Do I have that… that level where I can be satisfied without hurting anyone… ugh i just dont know anymore… not written to upset anyone just random thoughts swimming around my brain…
My whole life I believed men are the answer, whenever I was sad dad would fix it, whatever i wanted he would buy it… when the women in my life picked on me the men would always rush to my rescue and my defence…
As I got older and other men wanted to take care of me… I learnt that being able to get men to do what I want made me powerful… I learnt that being able to manipulate men was like being a wizard, men made things happen…
but its men… not a man… theres only so much one man can do, I wonder if I will ever be satisfied with just one… if one can ever do enough? What is enough? Do I have that… that level where I can be satisfied without hurting anyone… ugh i just dont know anymore… not written to upset anyone just random thoughts swimming around my brain…