Condolences on your issue.
Have you spoken with your wife about this?
I suppose you haven't if you are putting a smiley face on for her.
Is she not approachable for this type of conversation?
I've been alone my whole life, but I can only imagine how much worse it must be for people who are married who can't open up to their spouse about things like this. Hope you can find a solution. Best of luck.
Married for 12 years, she is a great girl my wife. Headstrong and controlling but for over 10 years I never had any issue with that nor I cared. Ever since I started modeling (the salt and pepper hair distinguished gentleman category) she has been exceptionably nosy with everything I do. Stripped me off my online privacy everywhere. Has access to all my social platforms and even controls them to her liking. Always suspicious to the point that even my mood swings she attribute to me being arrogant since I get to work with young women now and all. I am not a loud person so last year when this precipitated I used to go silent and we didnt talk for weeks. Since last october I just try to smile through every thing that she insinuates (my whereabouts if she doesnt see me on home camera for a few minutes, audit of my online activity and who I am talking to which is no one and why I am watching the movies that I m watching, the list goes on)
Since I am not doing anything I let her do whatever she wants but this and some of the things she have done over the past couple of months have driven a wedge in my heart. I act like I am this obedient and happy husband. So talking to her is pointless. She doesnt have to be unhappy because of how I am feeling so I keep her out of my real feelings.
No friends of social circle, no parents, no confidantes. Meaning all the things I am going through are compounded to the point where I am crying for no reason in my car or in the lavatory.
Sorry about the long whining response.