- Jun 19, 2021
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No other man has that one thing my ex had in droves, well aside from his wealth,
He had this ability to make me feel beautiful, every time he was with me, never once did I catch him looking at anyone else,
I always had his undivided attention, affection, admiration, it became like an addiction.
Sometimes, I would look at another girl in a revealing outfit and think "when I turn around I bet he's looking at her"...
Only to find, nope, just me, just looking at me while I am... looking at her.. okay that just got weird lol
But you know what I mean... he told the world about me, he'd show me off, I'd be his display on WhatsApp, his wallpaper,
He used to call me his "fantasy girl", he would buy me outfits, treat me like you know.. like I was his. In fact, he still acts like this with me till this day.
I am still his display pic on WhatsApp, I am still his wallpaper, he has a girlfriend and still keeps it there, no idea why she don't slap him (joke joke)
I know it was all smoke and mirrors, I know it wasn't true, I know he messed a
I know he beat me more times than he kissed me, so maybe I just expect men to live up to this unrealistic expectation because i'm a toxic skank...
But thats what makes it so confusing... so hard to really leave him... because no other man has even pretended? to want me that much...
No other man could ever want me that much, he literally would have worn a top with my face on it, if I look down he'd stop everything to make sure I was okay,
Where do you find something like that, that is pure, that is real?... I just don't know... should you even want something like that or is my narcissism peeking through again...