About how if I had the skillset and the capability I would just like to go off and live in the wilderness as some kind of survivalist, I used to really enjoy technology like computers and video games. Now I am starting to wonder whether living a more primitive life is actually a better way of life.
Do not waste a moment worrying about the past history. You get up and embrace what has come into your life fully. At the risk of sounding dramatic, I have favoured you for so long it would be silly for me to want anything but the best for you. The thought of you getting it makes me smile big. Just keep going.