To receive what I deserve or for people to be honest about what I deserve. If I'm not a terrible person and am in fact as fun, creative, and sensitive as people say, my life and social life should reflect that.
I like my hobbies, I like my job, and I like where my work is going, even if in the far future. I'm just lonely and expect that even if I were to volunteer at an old folks' home or a children's hospital, I'd find the same dishonest, self-serving treatment that I find just trying to find someone who likes me and likes my ideas.