yes, you're right, it's like the saying or prayer, "give me the strength to change what I can and the strength to accept the things I can't or something like that". It's really tough though, but I guess I have no choice
I have wonted to kill myself plenty of times. Never actually tried to go frow with anything. Once I got drunk with the intentions of doing it but luckily for me I cant take my drink and just ended up passed out on my bed. Or unlucky, some might say.
One day I just sat down and asked myself if I where ever going to have the courage to end it all. I can remember turning the telly off, turning the computer off and making my self a drink and I just sat there thinking about this.
The out come was that I realized after some thought that I was never going to be desperate enough or have the bottle it took to actually try and go frow with something.
Now my back is never going to get better. In fact it probably will get worse has I age. I am always going to walk with a limp no matter what I do.
I have realized that I could never kill myself so the only other thing I could do is ether keep feeling sorry for myself and keep getting angry at the world or just accept that I ether kill myself or start making the best out of a bad thing.
Once you realize that you really dont have no choice it does get easier.
In fact I dont have it so bad. I have has a kid spent time in a wheelchair. I was told for a wile that I would never get out of that chiar and did use one for about a year. After a lot of sweat and hard work doing physiotherapy every day I did in fact learn to walk again. I dont walk that good or fast. Iv not been able to run since I was 11 years old.
I am very thankful that I can walk though even if not to well. Being in a chair sucks and it does restrict where you can go. Even in today's age.
I suppose once I stopped feeling sorry for myself I started seeing the more positive points of life. I do have a car and a little spar cash right now.
I am free to go anywhere and do any thing even if I have to do it alone.
Of course I still get down but not has often or has deeply has I used to.
To move on from anything you first have to accept it.
You cant choose what hand you get dealt in life but you can choose how you play it.
That prayer you quoted has some meaning. I am not a religious person how ever I do think the bible has some thought provoking stuff in it that can help anyone not just people that have that sort of faith and a believe.
I also think having that sort of faith can make you a stronger person.
I rambled a lot more here then I wonted too XD
I do hope it was not to long a read for you.