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silentscream
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I could never imagine that one day i will spend time typing in a Lonely forume! let me tell you something.. all my life i have been searching for happiness and friends and i didn't find any..i am a kind of person who never imagine that one day i will be surrounded by no one! 23 years i have been dreaming to be surrounded by GROUP of frinds that simply makes me happy! but after 23 years of my life i only discovered NOW! that there is nothing named frindship ,nothing named CARE, no one cares to even call,u may ask why i didn't notice that b4 and the answer will be simply bec i always took the first step(the first step to call, arrange a gathering..etc)even in my birthdays i always waited for wt i cal friends to show up in my party i sit there LONELY for hours and CALL them several times on my BIRTHDAY to make sure they are coming and they come after 3 hours or 4 late,,i feel they just don't wanna come! i feel i have been pushing them to be my friends,,i am so sad i noticed that so late!!well i have a lot to say ,,,but can someone tell me WHY?! why there is no frindship on earth! its only FAKEEEEEEE friendship no one cares!! i don't feel happy atall, i get jealous from some of my friends that they mayhave the good life i wanted and i hate to admit that i am jealous bec i always dreamt to be the STAR among my foriends..so instead i say they are the ones who are jealous from me..thats simply it..i hope u can get a picture of what im talking about here...if anyone did...tell me WHY