Wrong
Silent Hill
Its like no matter what I do, I always get the short end of the stick. Which is why I quit trying. Its been that way all my life, i'm just not a winner. I'm a loser.
It isn't even an exaggeration, its just how it is. And its funny when people say its a "self fulfilling prophecy" when theres no way to escape it. Trust me, I tried to have a sort of "winning mentality" several times in my life only to lose that much harder.
I've always had this weird feeling that I am somehow cursed. Specially considering we used to live in a haunted house when I was a kid. I don't mind if you don't believe that last part. If you've never experienced a haunting house I'd get that theres no way you could believe in it. And thats ok. (and no, thats not a piss poor attempt at reverse psychology.) Yet, even if you completely disregard that part of my life, I still feel like i'm cursed and theres just no way either God or the Universe or whatever you wanna believe in would ever let me win at anything.
If we would be playing cards, i'd always lose. Specially if it were about some money (even though I don't gamble), i'd lose. Heck maybe thats even a reason why I never took up gambling, its kinda easy to avoid if you know you're always gonna lose anyway. Its not just about games or whatever though, its everything. Got kids who hates me, family that hate me, so I never see them and they'd never ever call. People just aren't interested in ever calling me unless its some stupid call center trying to sell me crap. They simply don't give a fresia how i'm doing. I could be laying bleeding to death in the middle of the street, every single one of them would just step over me and try to avoid getting blood on their shoe, because ew.
Even as a kid they ******* hated me, I got beaten up about 12 times a day until eventually I took up some Tae Kwon-do lessons and beat the snot out of a kid in first grade high school. Then they finally left me alone. And thats another thing, they ruined my youth. Both my mother and those ******** did. And how are they doing? I bet they're just fine living life to the fullest, great successes all of them. I'm sure of it. Because unlike the movies in real life evil always wins. Not that i'm an angel myself mind you, just a loser.
It isn't even an exaggeration, its just how it is. And its funny when people say its a "self fulfilling prophecy" when theres no way to escape it. Trust me, I tried to have a sort of "winning mentality" several times in my life only to lose that much harder.
I've always had this weird feeling that I am somehow cursed. Specially considering we used to live in a haunted house when I was a kid. I don't mind if you don't believe that last part. If you've never experienced a haunting house I'd get that theres no way you could believe in it. And thats ok. (and no, thats not a piss poor attempt at reverse psychology.) Yet, even if you completely disregard that part of my life, I still feel like i'm cursed and theres just no way either God or the Universe or whatever you wanna believe in would ever let me win at anything.
If we would be playing cards, i'd always lose. Specially if it were about some money (even though I don't gamble), i'd lose. Heck maybe thats even a reason why I never took up gambling, its kinda easy to avoid if you know you're always gonna lose anyway. Its not just about games or whatever though, its everything. Got kids who hates me, family that hate me, so I never see them and they'd never ever call. People just aren't interested in ever calling me unless its some stupid call center trying to sell me crap. They simply don't give a fresia how i'm doing. I could be laying bleeding to death in the middle of the street, every single one of them would just step over me and try to avoid getting blood on their shoe, because ew.
Even as a kid they ******* hated me, I got beaten up about 12 times a day until eventually I took up some Tae Kwon-do lessons and beat the snot out of a kid in first grade high school. Then they finally left me alone. And thats another thing, they ruined my youth. Both my mother and those ******** did. And how are they doing? I bet they're just fine living life to the fullest, great successes all of them. I'm sure of it. Because unlike the movies in real life evil always wins. Not that i'm an angel myself mind you, just a loser.