Recent content by Elona

When a friend asked me today how I'm doing, I decided to be honest and mentioned that I'm feeling alone. If I mentioned that I'm about to kill myself, the effect would probably have been the same. Nothing. Thanks for nothing. There are some people in my life who doesn't deserve a front seat...

I hear you. I feel like I'm always the one who goes out of my way to let people know how special they are to me. But when I'm in need of something simple like a conversation, or just a bit of someone's time, I always have to hear why it is not possible. Like it's too much trouble for them. Or...

Case, I wish I had such an awesome friend like you!

Lately I've been feeling like I'm invisible, and when I DO reach out, I feel like a burden to the other person. All I'm hearing is why people CAN'T make time for me, why they can't talk right now, etc. I wish, for once, that someone would say, "I can't wait to talk to you!", and actually go to...

Gosh, I'm fed up with people today...

I'm feeling so, so fed-up with everything. So fed-up and tired of always being the odd-one-out, the misfit, the outcast. Not fitting in or belonging anywhere. Tired of going out of my way for people, but they would do little for me in return. I wish something would "happen" for me for a...

Especially the chorus part: "Everybody seems to be getting what they need where's mine?" [video=youtube]

This is exactly what I've been feeling. Thank you, Tiina63, and a big hug to you too. And thanks so much for your responses, everyone. I really appreciate the different viewpoints, advice and words of encouragement/support. It helped me gain some perspective on the situation, so thank you! :)

South Africa :)

Just want to put this question out there to hear (or in this case, read :p) what you guys think: Say you have someone in your life, with whom you feel "safe" to talk about the things that make you feel sad or down (ie someone you feel safe enough with to show your dark side to), that you could...

Hopeless, with a mixture of something else. Still figuring out what the "something else" is.

It never used to bother me much, but recently it has become pretty bad. Recently I've been feeling like I always have to stand back. There's always something or someone more important than spending time with me. I'm yearning just to be someone's number one for a change. The one someone would...

Thanks everyone for the hugs and kind words. It means more than you think! :)

Today, when I wanted to chat to someone who I consider a friend, I was told "brb - checking FB quick". I ended the conversation immediately. I've also been in the situation where I would visit someone, and that person would spend most of the time Whatsapp-texting someone else. Isn't it sad how...

^This... And this morning I was actually surprised when I turned it on and a couple of texts came through... Then I remembered it's the first of the month, so of course there will be messages - it's my BFF the bank letting me know that my debit orders are being deducted.