Recent content by RainOfColors

I'm sorry, but I don't understand what you're trying to say. Could you put it again?

Where exactly did I mention that I don't want a deep connection with another person? If I didn't, I wouldn't have made this post in the first place. Have you misread my comments? Or do you just enjoy being rude to online strangers?

Then I choose to keep that way of living, despite the risks that come with it. I know you're not trying to push this on me, I'm sorry for being such a hard nut to crack. It's just important to me, to do it that way.

I don't think you are a mean person, I know you're only trying to help. But no, I don't think that you do understand me as you claim. We wouldn't have had this conversation if you did. I feel like we are thinking on a completely different wavelengths. But surely there is nothing for you to try...

It's not a bad thing. Even if it does result in limiting myself, I wouldn't like it to be otherwise. Because I believe there is nothing, even slightly negative about what I'm asking. What is so wrong with that? wanting to be understood? wanting to be able to relate to another person? what kind...

I don't understand why would you treat it as a bad thing. Yes, it would be up to my choice. If I am feeling that I can relate to that person, if I am feeling that she/he can deeply understand my feelings and knows what I've been through, and if that feeling is mutual between the two of us, then...

To be honest, I do see importance in finding someone who have gone as much as I have. Maybe there's something wrong with me feeling this way, but it's just the way it is. Otherwise, in my eyes, it creates a gap between me and the person that I want to connect to. That is, even if they are...

I can understand what you mean, but not relating to it unfortunately. I see having a relationship with another person more as a way to achieve purpose, a reason to live for. I mean the way I see it, what could possibly be more fulfilling and contributing thing to do in this life than devoting it...

As someone who suffered from life-long depression, crippling social anxiety and extreme loneliness through his life, many times I find it really hard to relate and connect with other people. I feel as if all these years of isolation and emotional pain, in themselves, contributed further to my...

I want a deep connection with another person. I want to live this life not just for myself, but to share it with another human being. I want to be a source of companionship, happiness and affection for someone important to me. I want someone to support during the hard times. I want someone to...

I'm thinking about it quite often. But I have no plans of doing it anytime soon.

1. Impaired brain functioning as a result of head injury or a disease. 2. Going crazy and do horrible things. 3. Never find anyone, spend the rest of my life in loneliness and pain. 4. Being paralyzed and kept alive against my will. 5. Fall in love and have that special someone being raped or...

I'm feeling very lonely right now, as always. Trying to cling to the small amount of hope I still have left, hoping for a day where all this pain will wash away.

Unfortunately, I could honestly say that 2015 was the worst year in my life. It's been a year of immense pain and events which left me more broken and depressed than I've ever been before. Hopefully 2016 will be a year of good recovery and moving towards better life.