I was the same way. In my twenties I sought out a gf and stopped as soon as it got to kissing and such. But I have physical issues that make me afraid of being intimate. You didn't mention any. Your reaction seems purely psychological and you should cure yourself by thinking about why you have...
I've been alone for ten years. Haven't had a girlfriend in twenty years. I bask too. I watch CHEERS on TV when I get lonely. They haven't learned my name yet, but I'm sure they're glad to see me.
Scientists say loneliness is as bad for your health as smoking! Maybe it should be a crime. It would be horrible to be forced to make pals or even DATE. That's going too far.
I started at a community allotment recently. I love it. So nice to just sit in the hut drinking tea and eating biscuits and just chatting as the rain falls.
DO STUFF. get out of your home and meet folk. Even if its just to be around them.
My passion is painting and making model figurines. The kind you get at Games Workshop etc. I like to make them from scratch(nothing). Actually they are made of paper clips and modelling clay...not nothing. That would be silly.
here's an example. It's Richie and Eddie from BOTTOM. Anyone a fan?
I'd just like to qualify how weird I am...I'm very weird.
Here's some of my art...it's not all me, most of it the first screenfuls are me. ...oh and I just got out of a rehab unit for people with mental problems. :)I told you I was weird...
I had a gf twenty years ago. I didn't really try for another one. People seem a bit boring. But I am into odd things, like using magic and looking for meaningful coincidences.
I'm the same way. I shout at people in the street. Charity beggars especially. I'm not mad I just pretend to be so I can get away with it and blow off some steam.
I made that same mistake. I'm forty now and I've been alone for ten years or more. I hate it. The good side of being a loner soon wears off.
I'm currently trying to make friends. Anyone live in Hull, England and needs a weirdo for a pal?