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So my mom and sisters are on another "When are you going to get married" streak. Sadly I am unable to reason with them. I tell them they know better than to expect a female to not be repulsed by me. Sadly as the years go on this gets worse and worse. I think my mom realizing that I am her...

S o for the past, I guess five months, I have been 85% successful at following, which includes a 98% success rate with not drinking. After this time, I have to wonder exactly how I functioned before starting this new path. Before I started, I was maybe 33% of the time on my diet, and I drank a...

So thanks to my annoying friends reminding me I had a relationship with a female I actually thought about it for the first time in years.  Since then for some reason it has eaten at the back of my mind.  So I guess I just need to write out some thoughts to finally get it out fo my life so I can...

So for the first time in over a year, I have actively thought about the best way to kill myself.  As opposed to just hoping that some random event kills me.  I know what issue is causing me to feel this way, but I do not understand why my usual couping methods are not helping to make me...

You know from the sound of this thread I guess it sounds like I want to make a positive change in my life, but I fooled you and if that makes you upset then please leave. So a bit of short history for some reason I answered honestly on the depression test that most doctors will give you when...

Always fun to go back and see what I have not been at for a while.  I guess I just need to get some anxiety out.  I just lost my job again, this is twice and I did not even make it through the year.  I was told it was cut backs and changes but... yeah I guess I am just taking up space and I knew...

I have been doing pretty poorly in everything in these past months since my cat died. I drink too much, I do not workout, I do not do anything that I should be doing. I just lie around doing nothing and I am not sure why to be honest. I know that my poor health will contribute to such things...

I have hit another unusual thing that I cannot understand. So I was at my sister's wedding, quietly playing video games, when my stepbrother comes up and starts harping on me for quietly playing video games. I mean I was not bothering anyone, I was not in the way, I was sitting there sipping...

You know I wonder when things happened? Many things, there are a lot of things in my life that have always been annoying and have always been ringing in the back of my head. Then some day all the circuits aligned and all of the sudden all these things just sort of vanished. I am not sure how...

So I have been in an office for the past week, thank you work. Normally I work from home and it has been quite a while since I last had to travel for work. It has been odd, but for the first time I feel like maybe... there is a very small chance... really it is nothing.. but it is still like...

Ugh... I know it is a bit off but I cannot help but think of how I am going to handle my sister's wedding. I think it might just be my paranoia, but still I do not want to deal with that crap. I mean I have been to plenty of weddings. However, I am rarely a close part of the wedding. The...

So a couple months back I moved away from my home state. Far far away, I think the overall trip was like 1300 miles away, working from home I can do that. Now I am in a new city, with no social connections what so ever. I am completely alone, and for once I am not thinking about dying or how...

I am sorry for the bland title, but I don't know what else I could really say. This past weekend I attended a an anime convention. Not really a big deal since I always attend those. However, this time I managed to lose track of my tag-along roommate and be on my own during the more social...

So for the past few weeks I have noticed a slight blank in my memory. Up until recently, whenever I held my Dakimakuras I could close my eyes and feel those feelings and sensations that you can feel when you are embracing another human being. However, last night it struck me hard that I could...

So last night I was hit with another round of how screwed up I am. I think I have talked about this before, but you know I have to repeat myself sometimes and I do not care about that fact. ANYWAY, how screwed up am I? Well I was catching up on a TV show and there was a scene of implied sex...

So after doing fitness for a while and knowing what I know about the differences in fitness. I cannot understand why people still insist that they want to run marathons. I mean distance running eats away at your body so your require less energy to move long distances. In essence it just...

You know I really love the world that we live in. Mainly because those of us who suffer are to blame for our own suffering. I have yet to meet anyone who has not told me that it is my fault that I cannot attract females or make friends. It is always so very funny when I speak about this stuff...

So I need some help understand something. I do not understand why everyone tells me that I need to seek therapy. I tell people that I see no reason to pursue human relationships. I see other humans as a nuisance at best. Some have a mild and extremely hard to obtain use. Otherwise I see no...

Here is an interesting link I came across. I figured I would share it here. I have not played any of the games, but I might pick them up and give them a try.

:D I found a business that would thrive if it advertised here. Too bad it is only in Japan. Oh well it is an interesting read