I don't mind being alone. If anything, I quite prefer it. I am given ample time to do what I want and think about whatever I want to think about. I sometimes even go out on day trips alone, my sole companions being a notepad, pen and headphones.
But it all gets to me when the birthday comes around. That one **** day of the year.
For the last 3 years, I have spent my birthday alone, without anyone, in my room watching a film. For me, birthdays are a time to reflect on what has been achieved over the last year, what you want to achieve during the next year and well... get depressed about it. I wake up the next morning feel very motivated for life.
When I hear about others birthday's, their friends organising big parties and taking them out, paying for them, giving them an evening of great fun, it doesn't depress me, but makes me long for something more than what I have. Never have I had someone throw a party for me or take me out!
I genuinely wonder how one can make friends like this. I don't particularly understand it!
I'm really not looking forward to my birthday in the next 2 months. I never do.
Does anyone else feel this way? Spend their birthdays alone?
But it all gets to me when the birthday comes around. That one **** day of the year.
For the last 3 years, I have spent my birthday alone, without anyone, in my room watching a film. For me, birthdays are a time to reflect on what has been achieved over the last year, what you want to achieve during the next year and well... get depressed about it. I wake up the next morning feel very motivated for life.
When I hear about others birthday's, their friends organising big parties and taking them out, paying for them, giving them an evening of great fun, it doesn't depress me, but makes me long for something more than what I have. Never have I had someone throw a party for me or take me out!
I genuinely wonder how one can make friends like this. I don't particularly understand it!
I'm really not looking forward to my birthday in the next 2 months. I never do.
Does anyone else feel this way? Spend their birthdays alone?