jwags818
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Anyone here ever been abandoned by a soulmate? I won't try to convince anyone here that it was in fact my soulmate without a shadow of a doubt. Every ounce of my being knows she is. We started a long distance relationship while we were both married. We lived 1600 miles apart but lived in each others pockets for almost two years. We talked on the phone every morning driving to work. Chatted all day at work, talking on the phone again at breaks and the drive home each night.
We both felt understood for the first times in our lives and could tell each other anything and did. I could forgive her completely and effortlessly unlike anyone else in my life. We were there for each other in ways no one had ever came close to. And the times we got to actually be together were amazing.
She had gone thru a terrible time with her first husband. He kept her locked in a room, used fishhooks to tie her up and pimped her out to his drug dealing friends. I was the first person she ever told the entire story to. She was also a sex addict. She had had continuous affairs her entire 20 year marriage. On one hand what we had was unique. The level of intimacy for her was unprecedented. But on the other side I was just another one in a long line that would prolly never really end. I knew this. And while I did fool myself a bit thinking it would be different for us I felt sure that what we had was genuine. There was too many times she reached out to me that I know she had real feelings for us.
Then one of her friends was hired to work with her, a female friend. And things changed. A few weeks later she ended it and cut me off 100%. No contact. wouldn't return a text or email. I was crushed. I tried and tried and tried to reach some sort of modified arrangement to stay friends. Talk once in awhile etc.. But to no avail...
So here I am almost a year and a half after we broke it off and I still think of her every day. I can't get her out of my head. I can bring myself to tears in seconds with a thought and I have never missed someone so much in my life. I left my wife of 30 years and dont ever think of her. Dont miss her a bit. But Lisa I am afraid will never leave me at peace. I have tried so very hard to let her go but I just can't. Please help. Anyone?
We both felt understood for the first times in our lives and could tell each other anything and did. I could forgive her completely and effortlessly unlike anyone else in my life. We were there for each other in ways no one had ever came close to. And the times we got to actually be together were amazing.
She had gone thru a terrible time with her first husband. He kept her locked in a room, used fishhooks to tie her up and pimped her out to his drug dealing friends. I was the first person she ever told the entire story to. She was also a sex addict. She had had continuous affairs her entire 20 year marriage. On one hand what we had was unique. The level of intimacy for her was unprecedented. But on the other side I was just another one in a long line that would prolly never really end. I knew this. And while I did fool myself a bit thinking it would be different for us I felt sure that what we had was genuine. There was too many times she reached out to me that I know she had real feelings for us.
Then one of her friends was hired to work with her, a female friend. And things changed. A few weeks later she ended it and cut me off 100%. No contact. wouldn't return a text or email. I was crushed. I tried and tried and tried to reach some sort of modified arrangement to stay friends. Talk once in awhile etc.. But to no avail...
So here I am almost a year and a half after we broke it off and I still think of her every day. I can't get her out of my head. I can bring myself to tears in seconds with a thought and I have never missed someone so much in my life. I left my wife of 30 years and dont ever think of her. Dont miss her a bit. But Lisa I am afraid will never leave me at peace. I have tried so very hard to let her go but I just can't. Please help. Anyone?