DeadImaginaryFriends
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My whole life I have interacted with many people, and I have only been close to one. And even now she is gone so I have no one to talk to. Nobody has a clue that I am lonely and sad. I put up the facade of being happy pretty easily and I do not let people see my emotions. I spend most days trying as hard as I can to be around other people and meet new people but at the end of the day I am always the one who goes home alone, while everyone else has people who love them and care for them and are always there for them. I've never done anything wrong to anyone, I'm always there for people but it seems like no one is there for me. I just don't know what is wrong with me. My one and only friend used to tell me I'm attractive, funny, caring, a great person and friend, and that I would make a great father someday, but so far that means nothing to me because everyone I ever get close to throws me away. I honestly don't know what the point of writing all of this down is and I don't expect anything to come out of this.
I have tried many ways to meet someone, anyone who will accept me. I've tried meetup groups, dating sites(never even got a response to any of my messages), social events, but in the end I always feel ignored and that I am not liked. In any one of these events if I don't talk then everyone ignores me and when I do talk no one continues the topic of conversation I brought up.
I have never had a solid group of friends. I used to be good friends with one, but she is moving on with her life it seems. With the all the effort it takes just to get someone to acknowledge me, I feel that it's too late to make true friends since most people already have established their social groups by their 20's. I'm 21, and I feel like I have wasted my youth. The best years of my life are passing by. I have already missed out on so many experiences such as chilling with friends talking about life, doing group activities, going on a date with a girl or joking around without taking it personally. Then I go to bed all alone, with no one to cuddle or talk to about anything and everything and the cycle repeats.
I have never felt more alone in my whole life. It's been like this for the past three years. I just feel so hopeless.
I have tried many ways to meet someone, anyone who will accept me. I've tried meetup groups, dating sites(never even got a response to any of my messages), social events, but in the end I always feel ignored and that I am not liked. In any one of these events if I don't talk then everyone ignores me and when I do talk no one continues the topic of conversation I brought up.
I have never had a solid group of friends. I used to be good friends with one, but she is moving on with her life it seems. With the all the effort it takes just to get someone to acknowledge me, I feel that it's too late to make true friends since most people already have established their social groups by their 20's. I'm 21, and I feel like I have wasted my youth. The best years of my life are passing by. I have already missed out on so many experiences such as chilling with friends talking about life, doing group activities, going on a date with a girl or joking around without taking it personally. Then I go to bed all alone, with no one to cuddle or talk to about anything and everything and the cycle repeats.
I have never felt more alone in my whole life. It's been like this for the past three years. I just feel so hopeless.