heretostay
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without going into a lot of details, ive decided its time to stop running from my loneliness, to stop being ashamed of it, and to stop trying to make it go away. instead, im going to embrace it.
Ive stopped indulging in self-pity. the thoughts still come up, but i dont entertain them. instead im trying to focus on what im grateful for- the things i do have instead of the things i dont. its hard. there are a lot of things i want to feel sorry for myself about.
i also bought a little journal and a book called The laws of the Spirit. im going to hike to a solitary spot by the river and read that book and journal. just me and my dog. im going to do it every day for a week- starting next week.
Im not exactly sure what i hope to find; only that i have tried and tried to make friends and its just not happening and im tired of feeling miserable. i just hope to find some peace of mind. Maybe i need to learn how to be my own friend. i have not been very nice to myself.
I actually feel a little better already.
Ive stopped indulging in self-pity. the thoughts still come up, but i dont entertain them. instead im trying to focus on what im grateful for- the things i do have instead of the things i dont. its hard. there are a lot of things i want to feel sorry for myself about.
i also bought a little journal and a book called The laws of the Spirit. im going to hike to a solitary spot by the river and read that book and journal. just me and my dog. im going to do it every day for a week- starting next week.
Im not exactly sure what i hope to find; only that i have tried and tried to make friends and its just not happening and im tired of feeling miserable. i just hope to find some peace of mind. Maybe i need to learn how to be my own friend. i have not been very nice to myself.
I actually feel a little better already.