Just seen it on facebook. Initially felt like someone had kicked me in the balls.
Feel a few different things now. Firstly, I just wonder how lucky some guys are. How they can get up in the morning and get dates and meet women. The woman I like is stunning so plenty of men will be after her. I just don't feel good enough. I can be ultra nice to women (and I am) but it doesn't get me anywhere. Nothing does and however nice women say I am, nothing seems to go for me. At best I become 'friends' with the occasional woman, like this one.
It all seems a big waste of time and effort and worry. Yet she has spent a bit of time with me alone (playing golf) and no other woman seems to want to. So it's better than nothing I suppose. I just feel embarrassed because I have mentioned her to my Mother and a few other people. I've never had many friends in my life and it's a big deal having a female one.
One of her friends flirts with me so I asked her to the pictures but she didn't really answer. She flirts like crazy and I wanted to call her bluff somewhat and see what happened.
I just think when women say nice things they don't really mean it. The flirty woman said a couple of weeks ago that her and the golf woman were 'fighting over' me. Those were her words. I thought 'that's interesting' - yet really it's just either teasing or somebody messing about.
People say 'go out and meet people' - I am not the type, I am just not comfortable in a social setting in large groups of people. I don't meet people when I go anywhere. All people seem to do is make fun of me. I like one to one meetings.
It is nice I have become 'friends' with this woman and I've never been daft enough to think it would go any furthur. I just wish they were more people like her and I had ten friends like her. And then she wouldn't be so important !
Feel a few different things now. Firstly, I just wonder how lucky some guys are. How they can get up in the morning and get dates and meet women. The woman I like is stunning so plenty of men will be after her. I just don't feel good enough. I can be ultra nice to women (and I am) but it doesn't get me anywhere. Nothing does and however nice women say I am, nothing seems to go for me. At best I become 'friends' with the occasional woman, like this one.
It all seems a big waste of time and effort and worry. Yet she has spent a bit of time with me alone (playing golf) and no other woman seems to want to. So it's better than nothing I suppose. I just feel embarrassed because I have mentioned her to my Mother and a few other people. I've never had many friends in my life and it's a big deal having a female one.
One of her friends flirts with me so I asked her to the pictures but she didn't really answer. She flirts like crazy and I wanted to call her bluff somewhat and see what happened.
I just think when women say nice things they don't really mean it. The flirty woman said a couple of weeks ago that her and the golf woman were 'fighting over' me. Those were her words. I thought 'that's interesting' - yet really it's just either teasing or somebody messing about.
People say 'go out and meet people' - I am not the type, I am just not comfortable in a social setting in large groups of people. I don't meet people when I go anywhere. All people seem to do is make fun of me. I like one to one meetings.
It is nice I have become 'friends' with this woman and I've never been daft enough to think it would go any furthur. I just wish they were more people like her and I had ten friends like her. And then she wouldn't be so important !