monkeysocks
Well-known member
HI
I live in the UK and first came across this forum in July When I was virtually clinically depressed, after spending a month without seeing a soul.
It was the final nail in my emotional coffin as after finding myself homeless twice in the space of 3 months (neither at any fault of my own) I was forced to buy a caravan miles away from anyone I knew.
It was very hard to deal with because basically my whole life had been destroyed by a swindler and then immediately after a cowboy boat builder who wrecked my canal boat (which was my new home).
So I was sitting in a caravan and to be honest it might as well have been on the moon.
I didn't have anyone to talk to, no job and didn't know anyone. Going into town was a No go as I found it all too upsetting seeing everyone else getting on with their lives and I had nothing and no one and didn't even know anyone to say hello to.
But after reading the posts and identifying with many of the experiences and feelings expressed on here really helped me to see that it didn't just happen to me or was even my fault I was alone.
Ending up alone isolated was always my greatest fear, so bad I hated the 'elenor rigby' song all my life and every time I heard it I would turn it off.
But within days of reading your posts on here I took the first step - went into town and sat in Macdonalds saying to myself 'it will all be ok'.
I know that sounds a crazy thing to call an achievement, but if you knew how upsetting it was to go through all that to face my greatest fear at the end of it - it was like climbing Everest to me.
What I began to realise is no matter what life throws at you, or takes away, if you look at your life or what you do have as 'the bottle half full instead of half empty'.
So thanks, I am now really getting stronger and optimistic and I hope that I can give something back
I live in the UK and first came across this forum in July When I was virtually clinically depressed, after spending a month without seeing a soul.
It was the final nail in my emotional coffin as after finding myself homeless twice in the space of 3 months (neither at any fault of my own) I was forced to buy a caravan miles away from anyone I knew.
It was very hard to deal with because basically my whole life had been destroyed by a swindler and then immediately after a cowboy boat builder who wrecked my canal boat (which was my new home).
So I was sitting in a caravan and to be honest it might as well have been on the moon.
I didn't have anyone to talk to, no job and didn't know anyone. Going into town was a No go as I found it all too upsetting seeing everyone else getting on with their lives and I had nothing and no one and didn't even know anyone to say hello to.
But after reading the posts and identifying with many of the experiences and feelings expressed on here really helped me to see that it didn't just happen to me or was even my fault I was alone.
Ending up alone isolated was always my greatest fear, so bad I hated the 'elenor rigby' song all my life and every time I heard it I would turn it off.
But within days of reading your posts on here I took the first step - went into town and sat in Macdonalds saying to myself 'it will all be ok'.
I know that sounds a crazy thing to call an achievement, but if you knew how upsetting it was to go through all that to face my greatest fear at the end of it - it was like climbing Everest to me.
What I began to realise is no matter what life throws at you, or takes away, if you look at your life or what you do have as 'the bottle half full instead of half empty'.
So thanks, I am now really getting stronger and optimistic and I hope that I can give something back