I can't stand this life, can't stand my life. I have live for 20 years in self-isolation. I can't take this much longer. Society remind me off how lonely I am. I see groups of people all the time, and it make me feel like honeysuckle. At night I can't even sleep, I wet my bed with tears. I can't sit or sleep still, I feel sick. I keep dreaming of white girls, I want them in my arm, I want to hold their hand and kiss them.
I been in an accident last year that almost cost me my life, and I really wish it did. Why am I still alive? I could have die and be at peace.
I could be a white fat tall guy and get laid every night. I could be a complete jerk and A-hole and I would get all the white girls I want. Unfortunately the only white girls that like me are online and are either in different state or another country, and country music is not enough to keep me alive or sane. Because once I realize who sing it, it make me lonely. I just want a white girl, why is it so hard?
I wish I was white, I don't think I am continue living as an Asian male. I can't continue living this lonely. I don't care if I'm good looking or not, I'm still an Asian male that have to deal with a bunch of stereotype.
I don't get it? Why would a girl date an Ass hole just cause he white? I'm Asian, we suppose to be the most popular race of guy cause we treat girl like princess. I don't get it, it too much for me to handle right now. I wish I had a gun right now.
I could be the cutest Asian guy and still can't get those girls, but if I was fat, I have a better chance. I might go crazy one day and starting killing people, mostly white guy I can't stand. Things better change, my dark side is taking over me, and I don't know how long I can become sane or alive. I want to hang myself, run onto ongoing traffic, rape a girl so that I know what sex is like, go on a murder rampage, etc...
I been in an accident last year that almost cost me my life, and I really wish it did. Why am I still alive? I could have die and be at peace.
I could be a white fat tall guy and get laid every night. I could be a complete jerk and A-hole and I would get all the white girls I want. Unfortunately the only white girls that like me are online and are either in different state or another country, and country music is not enough to keep me alive or sane. Because once I realize who sing it, it make me lonely. I just want a white girl, why is it so hard?
I wish I was white, I don't think I am continue living as an Asian male. I can't continue living this lonely. I don't care if I'm good looking or not, I'm still an Asian male that have to deal with a bunch of stereotype.
I don't get it? Why would a girl date an Ass hole just cause he white? I'm Asian, we suppose to be the most popular race of guy cause we treat girl like princess. I don't get it, it too much for me to handle right now. I wish I had a gun right now.
I could be the cutest Asian guy and still can't get those girls, but if I was fat, I have a better chance. I might go crazy one day and starting killing people, mostly white guy I can't stand. Things better change, my dark side is taking over me, and I don't know how long I can become sane or alive. I want to hang myself, run onto ongoing traffic, rape a girl so that I know what sex is like, go on a murder rampage, etc...