Have you ever thought that suicide is a lost cause? The pain and the suffering of those around you to watch in a role reversal situation, would kill you? This is the only reason why I can never inflict this type of pain onto anyone.
I have two teenagers (a long way of being) adults (in maturity wise of coping) who would not know how to survive without me. As a punishment I would like to test this, but fail at this each time they show distress.
Although this does not stop me in hope of seeing my dream..... a wicked part of me, that wants to be set free. As I have struggled been a sole carer for the past ten years, of torture, raising children that are defective by hereditary diseases that I was not aware of.
Don't get me wrong! my own family was dysfunctional, I survived, well almost, as I would not be writing this if things were sweet.
My wish is, that the earth is wiped from "all existences".... so no one is left behind to grieve.....
Pretty sad really, as I would be selfishly taking away other peoples happiness and achievements.
How I wish everything would no longer in existent.
I have two teenagers (a long way of being) adults (in maturity wise of coping) who would not know how to survive without me. As a punishment I would like to test this, but fail at this each time they show distress.
Although this does not stop me in hope of seeing my dream..... a wicked part of me, that wants to be set free. As I have struggled been a sole carer for the past ten years, of torture, raising children that are defective by hereditary diseases that I was not aware of.
Don't get me wrong! my own family was dysfunctional, I survived, well almost, as I would not be writing this if things were sweet.
My wish is, that the earth is wiped from "all existences".... so no one is left behind to grieve.....
Pretty sad really, as I would be selfishly taking away other peoples happiness and achievements.
How I wish everything would no longer in existent.