taste-the-rainbow
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Erm so im 15 and I know people my age living life to their fullest and it irritates me knowing I cant do that mainly because of my family and lifestyle.
Im personally really outgoing and so creative and I know if I got the chance I could be great at many different things. But there are so many walls around me and I have nothing to break them down with. And my parents are the biggest walls ever built.
And because of this whole situation of me being pretty much locked up, im blind to my own future. I dont see anything in my future so ive become lost. I dont have a clue about what I should be aiming for in the future. Im so disturbed by the fact I might end up jobless because im so lost in what to do.
People say, do what makes you happy but how can I if im constanly being stopped, and in 10 years time I know where ill be- laying in the same bed resting my head on the same pillow staring at the same white ceiling wondering where I went wrong.
But in my dreams, which ive stopped myself from believing, I will always want to move away into a big place where I can make the rules I can make my own settings and no one will bother me when im trying to do something I want to do. But ive become so caught up with reality and its slapped me hard in the face, so ive become so negative minded on everything around me.
Yet I have memories of when I would look at grey skies and think what a beautiful day but now I hate waking up and facing reality and people. I hate waking up every morning with a lonely feeling sinking into my heart. I wish things could change because I really need some kind of ray of hope.
Thank you so much for reading.
~Taste The Rainbow
Im personally really outgoing and so creative and I know if I got the chance I could be great at many different things. But there are so many walls around me and I have nothing to break them down with. And my parents are the biggest walls ever built.
And because of this whole situation of me being pretty much locked up, im blind to my own future. I dont see anything in my future so ive become lost. I dont have a clue about what I should be aiming for in the future. Im so disturbed by the fact I might end up jobless because im so lost in what to do.
People say, do what makes you happy but how can I if im constanly being stopped, and in 10 years time I know where ill be- laying in the same bed resting my head on the same pillow staring at the same white ceiling wondering where I went wrong.
But in my dreams, which ive stopped myself from believing, I will always want to move away into a big place where I can make the rules I can make my own settings and no one will bother me when im trying to do something I want to do. But ive become so caught up with reality and its slapped me hard in the face, so ive become so negative minded on everything around me.
Yet I have memories of when I would look at grey skies and think what a beautiful day but now I hate waking up and facing reality and people. I hate waking up every morning with a lonely feeling sinking into my heart. I wish things could change because I really need some kind of ray of hope.
Thank you so much for reading.
~Taste The Rainbow