Gulliver1967
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I am sure I'm not the first or the last my "problem began this year" after many years of a sexless marriage and being faithfull married at 17 and 45 now ( I had only had sex with my wife until this year) I decided that I either leave my marriage have an affair or find a sexual out let . I saw a number of girls earlier in the year all Escorts younger 20s some very pretty and friendly girls. Just sex and fun then I met Diane and my heart just missed a beat . The sex was is amazing can't not going to describe it but to say no one else nothing else has every got close. We quickly escalated things and soon I became the most regular regular she tells me that I am best lover she has ever had and sees me outside of escorting as well. I have met her friends stayed over at her house and she says she has also feelings for me but won't let me break up my family for her . I love her more than words can say, we fell out for a few weeks and it was as if my world had ended I was truly beside myself. I cannot have her to myself that is clear she is addicted to her life style. She has never taken advantage of me though I have made it clear I would happily give her more cash to help her out She has never taken it. I am tearing myself apart I have considered and made an attempt at taking my own life. I am racked with guilt for betraying my family and forlorn that I can never truly be with the person I now love more than life. I have considered walking away ending it but I love her so much I don't think I would survive it. I have tried to concentrate on my family and marriage but I can't think of anything else. I'm truly lost and struggling to find a way through this