edgecrusher
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for years i didnt really have a best friend here with me. then a few years ago this dude got hired at my work and we instantly became close friends. we have a lot of common interests as far as what we like in terms of movies, video games, music, and sense of humor. then he joined the army a little over a year ago and i was all alone again. he comes back to visit when he can, its only like 4 hours away. hes here this weekend. but now when he comes back, its different. my roommate is a former marine so he knows a lot of military stuff. now thats all they talk about. we went out to eat last night and my roommate, my friend and the guy that came back to visit with him who is also in the army just talk non stop about military stuff. sometimes political stuff. i dont really know anything about any of that and i dont care to talk about it. its still awesome to see him but hes kind of different now. this is just another example of why i feel so alone. no one has ever stuck around in my life. they go off and do whatever and we dont talk anymore. i dont talk to anyone from my past aside from the random "hey whats up" on facebook or whatever. its few and far between and they are different. this friend is literally the last person that i regularly talk to that i have left, aside from my sister and random acquaintences that i dont talk to about personal stuff because i dont know them like that. i feel like it will always be like this. like i will be alone forever. no real friends that i regularly talk to, never been with anyone romantically. i dont mind not having a lot of freinds but... where is that someone for me?