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troubled
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Hello all
This is a really nice forum, i'll probably spend some time reading the posts and no doubt relate with a lot of it.
I guess i'm posting here because it's another evening alone and I just feel so alone. I'm 21 years old, I guess at this age a person should be having the time of their life, but so far for me it is just a continuation of the past numerous years of my life. Lonely, depressing, confusing.. i'm just lost in this life and in myself.
I don't really know how I find myself so utterly alone, almost reclusive. Maybe it was meant to be like this, maybe it was in my astrology? hah. I am a pretty normal guy, there's nothing wrong with how I look, how I treat others, i'm good at sports, music, i'm inteligent enough to have gone to university. I am a shy person though, maybe that is the crux. There must be something about me that distances me from others, maybe I have ADD or some other underlying cause, I don't know.
Anyway, more than anything I wish I had a true friend in my life who I could see, male or female I don't care, as long as they were a true friend. Any acquaintances i've had have slowly drifted away. They are probably not right for me. I have a handful of 'close' internet friends, but it drains me living my life through these pixles on my screen.
I'm not holding out on the hope there is anyone here from my area of the world, but i'm sure you're all nice and I look forward to speaking with you. I guess more than anything I need to understand how I can cope with my lonliness.
This is a really nice forum, i'll probably spend some time reading the posts and no doubt relate with a lot of it.
I guess i'm posting here because it's another evening alone and I just feel so alone. I'm 21 years old, I guess at this age a person should be having the time of their life, but so far for me it is just a continuation of the past numerous years of my life. Lonely, depressing, confusing.. i'm just lost in this life and in myself.
I don't really know how I find myself so utterly alone, almost reclusive. Maybe it was meant to be like this, maybe it was in my astrology? hah. I am a pretty normal guy, there's nothing wrong with how I look, how I treat others, i'm good at sports, music, i'm inteligent enough to have gone to university. I am a shy person though, maybe that is the crux. There must be something about me that distances me from others, maybe I have ADD or some other underlying cause, I don't know.
Anyway, more than anything I wish I had a true friend in my life who I could see, male or female I don't care, as long as they were a true friend. Any acquaintances i've had have slowly drifted away. They are probably not right for me. I have a handful of 'close' internet friends, but it drains me living my life through these pixles on my screen.
I'm not holding out on the hope there is anyone here from my area of the world, but i'm sure you're all nice and I look forward to speaking with you. I guess more than anything I need to understand how I can cope with my lonliness.
