Hello all,
I was a member of this site some years back under a different name and truthfully don't remember the log in email or password I used. But that isn't why I am here.
Some years ago, I came to this website after my then fiancée convinced me to move with her. Between the time she moved and I moved (about 2 months) she began to see someone she worked with and didn't tell me until I got there. My life was hell for a long time but I eventually made peace with it, or so I thought. Fast forward to today, I am remarried to an amazing woman who makes everyday better just by being there. But with time comes maturity, I realized what I am doing in life (Living area and work related) is continuing to hold me down from moving where I really want to live. Here I am now 31 and I still don't feel like I have my life together.
Some back story on my wife before I get to the next part. My wife suffers from a muscular disorder that will cause her muscle tissue to rapidly deteriorate around the time she turns 40. It will eventually cause her be in a wheel chair. I know that and have no problems with that.
Now to get back to the reason I made this forum post. My wife has since the day I meet her told me that she wants to be a mother. I didn't mind the idea because I would like to be a father. Things haven't been successful though and the doctors have said that her muscular disorder likely makes it so she could never have children. Now less than a month ago I turned 31 and she is 27. She told me on my birthday if I turn 35 and we don't have children she will divorce me so I can have the life I deserve. It hurt to hear but I passed it off as just being upset. But she has continued to say nearly everyday. Mentally I am feeling drained between trying to get things together to move next year and to process her possibly leaving me. I had a lot of mental relapses if you can call it that, in the past week to 10 days. I been looking up old friends and messages through the years trying to see why I can't get people to talk to me. I even looked up my ex who caused me problems all those years ago. I don't want anything really from her but I don't know I just feel like I need someone to talk to.
Someone please tell me what I should do? My wife is literally the only person to ever love me back, that didn't leave me.
I was a member of this site some years back under a different name and truthfully don't remember the log in email or password I used. But that isn't why I am here.
Some years ago, I came to this website after my then fiancée convinced me to move with her. Between the time she moved and I moved (about 2 months) she began to see someone she worked with and didn't tell me until I got there. My life was hell for a long time but I eventually made peace with it, or so I thought. Fast forward to today, I am remarried to an amazing woman who makes everyday better just by being there. But with time comes maturity, I realized what I am doing in life (Living area and work related) is continuing to hold me down from moving where I really want to live. Here I am now 31 and I still don't feel like I have my life together.
Some back story on my wife before I get to the next part. My wife suffers from a muscular disorder that will cause her muscle tissue to rapidly deteriorate around the time she turns 40. It will eventually cause her be in a wheel chair. I know that and have no problems with that.
Now to get back to the reason I made this forum post. My wife has since the day I meet her told me that she wants to be a mother. I didn't mind the idea because I would like to be a father. Things haven't been successful though and the doctors have said that her muscular disorder likely makes it so she could never have children. Now less than a month ago I turned 31 and she is 27. She told me on my birthday if I turn 35 and we don't have children she will divorce me so I can have the life I deserve. It hurt to hear but I passed it off as just being upset. But she has continued to say nearly everyday. Mentally I am feeling drained between trying to get things together to move next year and to process her possibly leaving me. I had a lot of mental relapses if you can call it that, in the past week to 10 days. I been looking up old friends and messages through the years trying to see why I can't get people to talk to me. I even looked up my ex who caused me problems all those years ago. I don't want anything really from her but I don't know I just feel like I need someone to talk to.
Someone please tell me what I should do? My wife is literally the only person to ever love me back, that didn't leave me.