Nice But Dim Jim
Well-known member
It's been a while since I last posted on here but the black dog is back with vengeance lately.
I am under not illusion that my unhappiness and resulting loneliness is manufactured by my own hands. I haven't been dealt poor hands in life, I've created and now I want to fix it but don't know how.
I lost one person I cared for more than life itself due to my miserableness and haven't learnt since. I can't fall in love again because I won't let myself, I keep sabotaging relationships that seem too good and the one person I want to have a relationship with is toxic, plays with me and is mentally more unstable than myself! Part of me wants to help fix her, like if I can make her happy it will make me happy but it will never happen
Why am I doing this to myself?
I am under not illusion that my unhappiness and resulting loneliness is manufactured by my own hands. I haven't been dealt poor hands in life, I've created and now I want to fix it but don't know how.
I lost one person I cared for more than life itself due to my miserableness and haven't learnt since. I can't fall in love again because I won't let myself, I keep sabotaging relationships that seem too good and the one person I want to have a relationship with is toxic, plays with me and is mentally more unstable than myself! Part of me wants to help fix her, like if I can make her happy it will make me happy but it will never happen
Why am I doing this to myself?