Brianna-1982
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I just don't think I was made to be in a relationship. I suck at relationships! lol They just drain all of my energy away and make me unbalanced as a person. The serious relationships I've been in have all completely ruined my life. Now I realize that the price I pay for personal freedom is basically being alone most of the time.
I guess my life's purpose lies outside the realm of being in love, being socially active or even being socially accepted for the most part. I've been going against the status quo of society for so long that it feels normal to me. I used to think it was 'cool' but it isn't. I have no choice. It feels like it's always been that way.
Honestly I can't relate with people. When everyone else is laughing I'm usually not, and vice versa. I know I have a lot to offer people, but its like nobody knows how to accept them! People just don't know what to do with me, so they don't stick around very long.
I am also a transgender woman, and that has made things even more difficult. I tried for years to be happy as a man, and I failed miserably at it. I guess that is a story I will save for another post.
I have learned to love myself. Usually I am fine being alone, but there are times like now when the pain is almost unbearable. I just want people in my life!
My family is all Mormon and I grew up Mormon as well. I rejected the church when I was just 12 years old. It's been so difficult dealing with my family when all they ever want to do is bring me back into the church. So I've had to distance myself from them.
I guess my life's purpose lies outside the realm of being in love, being socially active or even being socially accepted for the most part. I've been going against the status quo of society for so long that it feels normal to me. I used to think it was 'cool' but it isn't. I have no choice. It feels like it's always been that way.
Honestly I can't relate with people. When everyone else is laughing I'm usually not, and vice versa. I know I have a lot to offer people, but its like nobody knows how to accept them! People just don't know what to do with me, so they don't stick around very long.
I am also a transgender woman, and that has made things even more difficult. I tried for years to be happy as a man, and I failed miserably at it. I guess that is a story I will save for another post.
I have learned to love myself. Usually I am fine being alone, but there are times like now when the pain is almost unbearable. I just want people in my life!
My family is all Mormon and I grew up Mormon as well. I rejected the church when I was just 12 years old. It's been so difficult dealing with my family when all they ever want to do is bring me back into the church. So I've had to distance myself from them.