Jalmerk
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Hello.
A moth back in time, i still had a girlfriend. We had been together for over 2 years, but she finally had enough of me and left. She cheated on me, and changed completely as a person during the last month. I follow the "straight edge" lifestyle, which means i don't drink or smoke or do any drugs. That was a part of why she liked me in the first place, and she always kept going on and on about how horrible it would be if i ever started drinking, and on top of that she never trusted me, and always thought i was cheating on her. She started drinking and smoking, and hanging out with guys who treat her like honeysuckle, the kind of guys who see women as a sex object rather than a person. I loved this girl to death, and to see her transform like this just broke my heart right in two.
This was over a month ago, and after a few weeks i felt ok. But then i met the sweetest girl. A girl i had known from years back, but whom i handt seen for 5 years. She was one of the most beautiful women i had ever seen. And we became friends. I expressed my interest, and she brought out a new side of me, a sweet and loving side, which i always showed around her. But after a while, she ran off with some other guys, and has been doing this for a while, and even though she knows how i feel, she just doesnt seem to care.
I was walking to her apartment alone, heartbroken, when i realized how miserable i was. I was still in love with what my former girlfriend used to be, and i had fallen for a new sweet beautiful girl, who didnt care about me.
I broke down, and i cried. And now im feeling more miserable and more unhappy than ever before. Because i have no one to turn to. Sure i have friends, people i hang out with, but none of them really care about me. none of their lives would drastically change if i killed myself or something.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not suicidal, but if i was a weaker person i would be.
The feeling of someone you love betraying you, and finding out they don't really care, is the worst feeling in the entire world. I had my heart broken once, and once again just as i was trying to get back on my feet. I have no one to turn to, and no one who really cares for my wellbeing.
I'm just so terribly alone
A moth back in time, i still had a girlfriend. We had been together for over 2 years, but she finally had enough of me and left. She cheated on me, and changed completely as a person during the last month. I follow the "straight edge" lifestyle, which means i don't drink or smoke or do any drugs. That was a part of why she liked me in the first place, and she always kept going on and on about how horrible it would be if i ever started drinking, and on top of that she never trusted me, and always thought i was cheating on her. She started drinking and smoking, and hanging out with guys who treat her like honeysuckle, the kind of guys who see women as a sex object rather than a person. I loved this girl to death, and to see her transform like this just broke my heart right in two.
This was over a month ago, and after a few weeks i felt ok. But then i met the sweetest girl. A girl i had known from years back, but whom i handt seen for 5 years. She was one of the most beautiful women i had ever seen. And we became friends. I expressed my interest, and she brought out a new side of me, a sweet and loving side, which i always showed around her. But after a while, she ran off with some other guys, and has been doing this for a while, and even though she knows how i feel, she just doesnt seem to care.
I was walking to her apartment alone, heartbroken, when i realized how miserable i was. I was still in love with what my former girlfriend used to be, and i had fallen for a new sweet beautiful girl, who didnt care about me.
I broke down, and i cried. And now im feeling more miserable and more unhappy than ever before. Because i have no one to turn to. Sure i have friends, people i hang out with, but none of them really care about me. none of their lives would drastically change if i killed myself or something.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not suicidal, but if i was a weaker person i would be.
The feeling of someone you love betraying you, and finding out they don't really care, is the worst feeling in the entire world. I had my heart broken once, and once again just as i was trying to get back on my feet. I have no one to turn to, and no one who really cares for my wellbeing.
I'm just so terribly alone