I feel old.. I feel old and withered.. I'm only 24 dammnit! and I already feel like an old woman.. or at least like some 40 year old woman, tired of life.. haven't done anything in her life, just as a tired auntie.. I'm 24 dammit!!...... I lost so many years of my life in depression, it's like black hole, nothing, absolutely nothing happened through this years of nothingness, just like a black hole.. I feel doomed.. I don't see future..