Now, I don't even have my mom to talk to. I've made the same mistakes over and over again, that I can tell she's just done trying to help me. I'm just so by myself and paranoid of what people think of me. I don't seem to listen to what she tells me -- I still give too much weight to other people's opinions.
Some will see my post and say, "Don't worry about what people think," but for some reason it never helps me. I wish I didn't care. But I do.
I feel like people in my circle spread rumors about me. I feel like they've been shying away from me recently. I know maybe I'm just reading too far into stuff -- I can't explain it that well. I once asked out one of the young women in my circle and probably made her feel less comfortable around me, but I don't feel she'd spread that around. Nevertheless, I have a bad feeling. I always have the sneaking suspicion.
Anyway, feeling really bad tonight. I'm not even sure how someone can respond to my post here, but hugs always help.
Some will see my post and say, "Don't worry about what people think," but for some reason it never helps me. I wish I didn't care. But I do.
I feel like people in my circle spread rumors about me. I feel like they've been shying away from me recently. I know maybe I'm just reading too far into stuff -- I can't explain it that well. I once asked out one of the young women in my circle and probably made her feel less comfortable around me, but I don't feel she'd spread that around. Nevertheless, I have a bad feeling. I always have the sneaking suspicion.
Anyway, feeling really bad tonight. I'm not even sure how someone can respond to my post here, but hugs always help.