Four_in_the_morning
Well-known member
Why can't I find my tribe...
I am a triple minority who grew up with a terrible chronic illness. I had really bad eczema and suddenly recovered in my late 20s.
I missed out on all the beautiful experiences of youth, I job hop and friend hop until they find a better option.
I guess my only talent is finding decent gfs(partners) who love me for who I am but I am sick of being the depressed partner who whinges.
I feel demoralised when my gf has her life long buddies and well, I got no one.
I don't resent her for it.
But I almost look longingly at the happiness that I don't have.
I don't naturallly have a mental health issue...but lately I am becoming suicidal from LONELINESS. That pisses me off because I have so much to give too.
Its stifling my motivation, stifling everything.
My last dash move now is to move to a different city with my partner.
But I also have a secret fear that she will work me out and leave me because I am too... I dunno.. depressing?
I am a triple minority who grew up with a terrible chronic illness. I had really bad eczema and suddenly recovered in my late 20s.
I missed out on all the beautiful experiences of youth, I job hop and friend hop until they find a better option.
I guess my only talent is finding decent gfs(partners) who love me for who I am but I am sick of being the depressed partner who whinges.
I feel demoralised when my gf has her life long buddies and well, I got no one.
I don't resent her for it.
But I almost look longingly at the happiness that I don't have.
I don't naturallly have a mental health issue...but lately I am becoming suicidal from LONELINESS. That pisses me off because I have so much to give too.
Its stifling my motivation, stifling everything.
My last dash move now is to move to a different city with my partner.
But I also have a secret fear that she will work me out and leave me because I am too... I dunno.. depressing?