Thoughts of a mind

[Paranoid Android]

I hate my mind quite often. Its the thing that has helped me so, yet it hurts me bad. All it takes is the slightest disturbance, and my mind is all over it. It consumes me, and then it kills me. I die and become a corpse, walking about in a sea of noisy blurs and monsters. It scares me. Then there is the jumbling. As you no doubt can tell, my thoughts are coming out unclear and weird. This is simply because my brain is somewhere else far away while it relays transmissions to my body, or at least thats what it feels like. Its always worse when I am sad, as with now, and I lose all sense of reality and self. I wish I could just sever my mind from my body and float about, instead of having to put up with the hell I am experiencing. I honestly am not sure what I am saying right now, but I hope it at least manages to convey my hell and the brain that is trapped within it.

 

[IgnoredOne]

Have you sought professional assistance with this? It sounds like you have some focus issues.

 

[BrokenInside]

*Rumination*
I don't know what you have been through. You sound depressed. Don't bottle it up, let it all out.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

I dont think you're crazy. Yes, sometimes my mind can get annoying.
MAybe you simply havnt been educated to how your mind works or
the mechanics of it. Or taught tools of how to controll and discipline
your mind.

There's a part of our mind call the CREATIVE MIND.

Being a musician and why Im a musician.
I simply hear notes and melodies at random times.
Some people term this as the MUSE.
Ive tried to capture or remember those melodies, scales, riff...ect waking
up in the middle of the night to record it.
When the muse comes...she comes.I'll simply hear music in my head all the time.
When it gets like that...it can become annoying.

On the flip side of that...my mind also create a lot of wierd honeysuckle.
Sometimes it'll replay truamatic events in my life which trigger lot of feelings.

My mind wonder and drift all the time. Im more awear of this when Im
trying to focus on a task such as practicing my guitar or practicing do
aerobatic manuvers on my R/C air crafts. My body is simply doing
repetitive task. My mind gets bored with the task at hand, so it'll simply drift.

We'll get around 50K thoughts per day. To try to controll or phycho annolize
all of our thoughts would be mute.

Over the century men had the challenge of overcoming or controlling his mind.
MAny, many men MEDITATE for this very same reason. Quiting the mind.
You dont really have to be a spiritual guru to meditate. However it still takes
application and practice.
The easiest way to do this is to just sit still. Focus on an object in front
of you. Then simply OBSERVE the endless thoughts pass through your mind
as a passing parade. Dont annolize it or try to figure it out. Be TRANSPARENT.
Eventually your mind will come to a rest on it's own. Therefore you'll be
in the PRESENCE MOMENT or in the MOMENT....not in your head.

Sometimes if you're mind is undiscipline..you'll simply have to
make an assertive command...just tell it to "STOP".

Think of your mind as just like another piece of meat or muscel that's out of shape.
Simply practice or exersize discipline your mind. Over time you will gain more
controll over it...USe it to work for you instead of against you.
At first it will fight you...just like an discipine child.
If you're persistent...you'll win.

You can also try the sedona methode. youtube it.
It had helped me alot in letting of negaTIVE thoughts and feelings.

You are not your thoughts and feelings.....
You have thoughts and feelings.

Take whatever you want and leave the rest.

Our diet also plays a role....
Vitimin B5, B12 and saint john wart promote good moods.
If you're not consuming food with these vitimins...Obviously you're gonna feel like honeysuckle and react to your moods.
Taking vitimins wont give you instant gradifications. Over time you'll notice the different.