It should have come from you, those words, marry me so unexpected they made me laugh and gave me hope that maybe one day someone will mean them, someone will love me enough to want a lifetime of me. Today I heard I miss you and your kindness, did he see that in me? in the very few moments we spent together was he able to see how fragile and desperate I was inside the strong facade I played for you? You, who said us against the world, you who had my back, you who made so many empty promises, you don’t miss me at all. you told me to leave and i never saw you again. I begged for at least a picture, for that letter you said you were going to write. Years spent trying to give you hope hope, to be your light. You never said stay. But the people that knew me less saw me better than you ever did. Maybe they just don’t know me so well. Yet they miss me and my kindness. I wonder why you don’t? Do you remember us at all?