JeremySaidHi
Member
Hey folks,
Idk if anyone has every posted anything like this (I'm sure someone has) but anyway; I'm 25 years old currently finishing an associates degree and for the past 8 years of my life my experience with the opposite sex has been, well non existent. I mean all through out high school my friends made it look so easy to talk to girls and even start relationships with them.
I believe most of junior high school & an experience I had in high school caused me to shut down in regards to women. College for me was no picnic either, there were so many women I felt attracted to but I never could find the courage to even spare a passing glance out of fear of rejection. I avoid social events and social interaction. The few times I have gone out with friends (accompanied by female counterparts no less-making me the odd loner out) were fruitless endeavors. At clubs and bars I would find my spot on the wall and commence in my night of watching others have fun.
In the past 3 or 4 years I have only told two people in my life I am still a virgin (oddly they both were shocked by this) and it made me feel a little bit better about it. In truth I feel mostly ashamed of my virginity, I feel like I'm not where I am suppose to be in life and love. My friends have relationships and lives and I'm stuck in my room at my folks house alone, afraid of the world, angry at myself, angry with my life, angry at god, angry at everyone around me and ashamed.
Everyone says "Don't be ashamed of being a virgin, be proud.", but I feel they can't understand me cause of course they are usually not a virgin themselves. I try not to be ashamed but its kinda hard when kids younger than me can say they have connected with someone on such an intimate enough level they could share in one another. I'm afraid I'll end up being a real life 40 year old virgin and I simply don't know what to do about at this point.
Idk if anyone has every posted anything like this (I'm sure someone has) but anyway; I'm 25 years old currently finishing an associates degree and for the past 8 years of my life my experience with the opposite sex has been, well non existent. I mean all through out high school my friends made it look so easy to talk to girls and even start relationships with them.
I believe most of junior high school & an experience I had in high school caused me to shut down in regards to women. College for me was no picnic either, there were so many women I felt attracted to but I never could find the courage to even spare a passing glance out of fear of rejection. I avoid social events and social interaction. The few times I have gone out with friends (accompanied by female counterparts no less-making me the odd loner out) were fruitless endeavors. At clubs and bars I would find my spot on the wall and commence in my night of watching others have fun.
In the past 3 or 4 years I have only told two people in my life I am still a virgin (oddly they both were shocked by this) and it made me feel a little bit better about it. In truth I feel mostly ashamed of my virginity, I feel like I'm not where I am suppose to be in life and love. My friends have relationships and lives and I'm stuck in my room at my folks house alone, afraid of the world, angry at myself, angry with my life, angry at god, angry at everyone around me and ashamed.
Everyone says "Don't be ashamed of being a virgin, be proud.", but I feel they can't understand me cause of course they are usually not a virgin themselves. I try not to be ashamed but its kinda hard when kids younger than me can say they have connected with someone on such an intimate enough level they could share in one another. I'm afraid I'll end up being a real life 40 year old virgin and I simply don't know what to do about at this point.