Dissident
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I am a 26 year-old web software developer from Virginia, US. Among a family of short-haired, bible-thumping country fans, I am the lone long-haired, atheist metalhead. I am part Cherokee and my family is descended from Jamestown settlers, but I am also planning on moving to Norway after I learn more of the language.
I've suffered depression from an early age that has manifested in several unpleasant ways, but the most apparent is my almost constant feeling of loneliness and hopelessness. Even when talking with a group of friends, I always feel that I am by myself. Talking in a two-person conversation I always feel like the third wheel that just keeps spinning for no reason. I have a girlfriend with whom I feel no connection, be it emotional, mental or sexual. I also feel that, closing in on my approach to 30, I have accomplished nothing noteworthy or important in my life, as none of the goals I thought I could achieve have come to fruition.
Over my life I've been thrust into some precarious predicaments that have forced me to develop social skills I didn't have before, and having lived with depression my whole life, there is a tool set that I've developed over the years to help cope. But it would be nice to talk to some people who actually understand from experience rather than hearsay or research papers.
I've suffered depression from an early age that has manifested in several unpleasant ways, but the most apparent is my almost constant feeling of loneliness and hopelessness. Even when talking with a group of friends, I always feel that I am by myself. Talking in a two-person conversation I always feel like the third wheel that just keeps spinning for no reason. I have a girlfriend with whom I feel no connection, be it emotional, mental or sexual. I also feel that, closing in on my approach to 30, I have accomplished nothing noteworthy or important in my life, as none of the goals I thought I could achieve have come to fruition.
Over my life I've been thrust into some precarious predicaments that have forced me to develop social skills I didn't have before, and having lived with depression my whole life, there is a tool set that I've developed over the years to help cope. But it would be nice to talk to some people who actually understand from experience rather than hearsay or research papers.