ardour
Well known loser
So I thought I might whine about this again. There’s been a couple a new people in the office since the beginning of the year. One is the replacement for the weird nasty person I ranted on about previously. She’s outwardly friendly, actually sat next to me at morning tea once. Well she must not have liked me from that short conversation; even though she makes a point of smiling and saying hello, we’ve not spoken since. Then there’s this casual part timer. The only times we’ve spoken is when she’s asked for help. Outside of this, it seems like she’s been watching my movements and does her best to avoid ‘crossing paths’ with me. They all take breaks at their desks.
And then there other young(ish) women working in the building. In contrast to men here, almost all of whom I know quite well now, most of them don't say hello or ever try to initiate conversation. If they see me in the break room they either do a double-take and walk out or sit as far away as possible, literally hunched against the magazine cupboard on the opposite end of the room. Since I’ve never attempted any non-work-related conversation with these people, all they can know about me is my appearance.
It seems my existence causes discomfort to half the population, and frankly I’m tired of being made to feel like scum.
I hate this feeling of being monitored, scrutinized simply because I’m male, have unattractive facial features and am awkward. I’ve tried everything from being friendly and relaxed to complete indifference. None of it makes any difference.
And then there other young(ish) women working in the building. In contrast to men here, almost all of whom I know quite well now, most of them don't say hello or ever try to initiate conversation. If they see me in the break room they either do a double-take and walk out or sit as far away as possible, literally hunched against the magazine cupboard on the opposite end of the room. Since I’ve never attempted any non-work-related conversation with these people, all they can know about me is my appearance.
It seems my existence causes discomfort to half the population, and frankly I’m tired of being made to feel like scum.
I hate this feeling of being monitored, scrutinized simply because I’m male, have unattractive facial features and am awkward. I’ve tried everything from being friendly and relaxed to complete indifference. None of it makes any difference.