Same here. And my under-developed social skills and lack of experiences makes it harder. It's like I'm not a part of this world, almost like watching a movie instead.
I have ideations from time to time. I'm trying to change myself for the better but it's become so hard to grasp simple concepts that would normally come naturally for others. I am not ready to die but I don't want to be stuck as I am for 36 more yearsor worse. That's when the suicidal...
I think having a speech impediment contributed in part to my fears as well. Been stuttering since I was five. I hated having to read aloud in class or introduce myself to new people. I've had people hang up on me when i tried talking on the phone or order pizza.
I would say that my stutter...
I am 36 years old with no friends. I haven't had a friend in so long that I can hardly even remember what it's like to have one. The last time I had friends was back when I was a teenager in highschool. And even then I couldn't say they were close friends. I never hung out with any of them...
This is something that I've felt alot. I don't like what I see in the mirror, and I'm not talking about looks. It's more like 'I wish I was someone I can respect' type of thing.
Hello all. I have been lurking here for a few months but just didn't know how to introduce myself. I'm 35 years old guy who lives with my mom and bro (not by choice, believe me) and I guess you can call me the black sheep of the family. I have struggled with SA and loneliness for many years...