Thanks so much for responding. After not getting replies for several days, I thought I was going to be lonely even on the lonely life forum. That's kind of depressing to stand out as extra lonely on a place lonely people go. The holidays are especially annoying to not have a family of my own.
Wow! I joined this forum over four years ago and totally forgot it.
I feel like I'm the supporting character in everybody else's movie. People like me at least in the abstract, but it's a distant kind of friendship limited to a facebook comment about what a great guy I am or a vague promise...