Recent content by lookingforthelight

I'm at the point where being alone is my best option. I want to eventually make friends and make real connections and be loved and give love to someone.

that's true, but writing is so personal to me. I often use things that people have said to me and I would feel exposed revealing my writing to someone else

thanks. I'm just not good at forcing myself to write. Maybe that's why I never finish a story.

Me too! I used to want to write a novel. I thought it was my golden ticket to riches and fame and happiness. How silly I wa.s

I don't know if it's therapeutic, but it gave me something to look forward to. I'd always say "This is the one! This is the story I'll finish and publish and it'll be turned into a movie and everything will be perfect for me" but i'd never finish the story.

I used to write poetry and songs and I could just LOSE MYSELF in writing a story, but I've been having writer's block as of lately.

I have dreams. Dreams that I have held onto since childhood. There are certain things that I know I need to do, certain cities that I know I need to see. Sometimes, when I got suicidal, I couldn't see those dreams and when I feel like I'll never accomplish them, I Ijust immediately know that I...

Thank you. It's been a really hectic week. Actually, last week was a million times worse. Last Friday and Saturday were actually two of the worst days of my life. Just complete roller coasters. But I've kind of steadied out a little bit. I feel like I'm getting closer to something, I don't know...

that's a cool song.

That quote is so right. All these jerks who've hurt me don't deserve my attention- that's what people always say- but it doesn't remove the pain. I wish I could just wake up one day and feel better.

I saw Lincoln Lawyer earlier today. It was better than I thought it would be. Pretty good for a Matthew McConaughey film. 7/10

I am in the same situation! It sucks to not be able to be open with your family and the people around you. that's so true. it makes you replay the scenarios in your mind. which could reopen old wounds, or it could help bring us closer to closure. I'll def PM you.

Oh my God- someone who understands me! yay! I've suppressed so much that it just feels like I'll explode. I'm at the point where one little insult can make me have a breakdown cause it opens the floodgates to all of my other insecurities and sadness.

thank you I like the quotes in your signature

I can't shake the feeling that crying and being down in front of other people makes me "less than". I don't know, it's just something from my childhood. My emotions were a burden to my parents and I have this constant fear of being a burden to people.