Recent content by lopakhin

Mid 90s music. STP, Gin Blossoms, Blind Melon, R.E.M., etc.... Just looking a lot of it up on YouTube.

Not finding something I was truly passionate about doing. I used to be into exploring creative things when I was younger, but was discouraged from pursing it. And this was even after winning a few awards in school. I recently tried to express myself in that way again, but now I just feel...

I definitely don't like who i am. I've been in some dark, dark places in my life, and have pulled through with new damages each time. I don't know if it's a good or bad thing because i have just become callous and without feeling a lot of the time. I'm basically numb to it all now. And...

Yeah, I'm definitely weird. I said a 2. :-)

No one. I just end up internalizing everything. Doing that can definitely drive you a bit mad sometimes.

Thanks for the welcome everyone. :) Yeah, I find that I'm good at hiding it for awhile, but eventually it comes out. It's almost as if I'm just playing a role trying to fit in with all of the other happy people. It makes me so uncomfortable. I just want to be able to get excited about things...

Have any of you ever not pursued a relationship with someone because you felt that in the long run they would be better off with someone else? I seem to be doing this a lot more recently. Since I'm such a private and socially inept person, i often feel that being in a relationship with me...