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There are flaws in things like AA, but in some ways the structure and fellowship has helped. Though I often feel a disconnect with it, but I guess that is mainly due to my own social inadequacies.

I sometimes think of going back to drinking. Like, would a few beers hurt here or there? For me, yes, because it was never going to be enough. I drank because I wanted life to be a blur or just a total blackout. To help with anxiety or to 'relax" were just secondary reasons for the most part...

No, they did not help. I get that meds work for some people, but pills aren't a solution for everyone. And the effects were things like weight gain, increased appetite, erratic behavior, you know, something that shouldn't be happening with those type of meds. Then there was the stigma from...

I was going to make another thread but that just seemed silly to do. I am not okay right now. I'm hurt and I'm angry for getting hurt. I don't want to get into it because it's stupid and it's not the one and only reason I feel like this. But I'm tired of hurting so much. It's clear I don't...

No, I don't take medication due to past negative experiences with them. And yes, I do see a therapist. I would like to think that helps but it isn't exactly something that makes life perfect or better. I suppose it helps me in a way that I can talk to someone who seems understanding and not too...

Yes, I'm sorry if I have come off defensive at times. Trying to open up about this stuff is hard and I've had negative experiences doing so before. I will do my best to more open and patient.

It's not that I'm trying to control anyone. That's not what I'm saying. And maybe you're right, but I think a good part of ones self esteem comes from being accepted by others. Unless I'm supposed to believe everyone else is totally secure and okay with themselves all the time.

I'm not at your age yet, but it feels like it's too late for me to improve no less. Some people say it's not, others say it is. I am sorry for your struggles ( and yes, I think this is fair to say sorry in this context). I saw someone in another place like this mention how when they were 15...

You know, I'm really trying to get where you're coming from, but with all due respect, you know very little about me but you've assumed some things about me that isn't really fair. Right now, I have a lot on my plate and I don't know what to do or how to handle it. I hear what you're saying...

It's hard to get into. I just feel bad about not always being a good son or person in general. It often feels like my wrongs are more set in stone then they are with others.

I didn't do anything criminal, but I feel guilt and shame no less. I do talk to a therapist and I am currently working on talking about alot of the most painful stuff with her. It's hard and I honestly don't know if it will really accomplish anything. And yeah, I get others have moved on, but...

I have done things wrong, and I have done things that have negatively impacted someone else's life. So I suppose then that yes, those are reasons I am not worth love and acceptance. But it also comes from the many rejections I have experienced. Some I can say I played a part in. But others...

I guess that's the thing, it's not easy to the point it just feels meaningless. Like, I can put myself out there or be willing to, and just get little to nothing in return. It's hard to share a lot about myself but I have felt more or less alone nearly my entire life. There is definitely...

Sorry, I don't post on here often. I have been feel more and more hopeless as of late. My life just feels so worthless and it hurts to not be worth love and acceptance. I have tried to better myself such as being five and a half years sober from alcohol, but none of feels like it matters. I am...

I don't post much and so I'm sorry for doing so when I don't contribute much. I just want to say that i am tired of being so inadequate and not worth love and acceptance, and yet seeing everyone else around me be so. I am tired and I give up.

No, thank you. I'm sorry about you being a shut in. I know that may not always be easy.

I'm sorry as I do not post often and so making a topic feels somewhat wrong. But I often feel conflicted with socializing. On one hand I really hate it because I have had so many negative experiences with trying. People have often talked down to me or just judged me in what felt like a harsh and...

I'm sorry that you struggle with similar feelings. Yeah it is hard trying to get through one day after another and it all feels in vain.

I'm sorry for the late response. I didn't want to make another topic, but it has been a difficult couple of months. I just feel very aimless and frustrated with life. I have tried moving forward and none of it matters. I'm tired and I want to give up. I'm sorry for not making sense.

I'm sorry as I had meant to come on here sooner, but I kept holding it off for one reason or another. I don't really know the best way to start this so I'll just start typing and hoping some of this rambling mess will make sense. I am an only child, so to a degree being by myself doesn't really...