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I understand all that now. They call things disorders for a reason I suppose. I can only say what I had occur. I'm not proud of it. Why couldn't it have just been butterflies is all I can really ask now. But instead, I sort of cracked. To this day I really don't know why I did any of what...

I know fully well that not every guy does that, but it has always bothered me at how much and often I actually hear it. It confused the living hell out of me and of course always made me feel worse because I felt so anxious around apparent doormats. Made me plain hate people in general (and then...

Now that put a smile on my face. Cute story. Makes :my: heart want to vomit haha

:D Good for you man. I am very happy for you. I'm proud of myself. I feel all glow-wormish. Still mad jealous though :cool:

Charles Ives. Forest of Shadows. Born From Pain. Xandria/Nightwish I listen to a lot of final fantasy music when I'm having an alone moment because it reminds me of when I was younger and alone; I didn't have a care in the world.. sweet! new gear!...maaaaaann..have to go to bed.. I have...

You do substantially more good to the world alive than dead. Even as profit is exceedingly driven after instead of the well being of fellow citizens, you still do far more good to the world than a thousand of myself. They can make even a smile cost a dollar, but you will just keep an open tab...

Why does it hurt so much when you hold in your tears? Why did you? I started allowing myself to do it a few months ago and it seems to come out of nowhere and I instinctively still stop myself. The most I've been able to muster is a little water works, but I am not forcing myself to do it. I am...

Start a religion. I'd write my apology to the world for doing so on my tombstone. "Sorry my followers turn everything into fascism, but it was AWESOME. Your guy in space and stuff _________". Why? Because I'm a terrible person. I would at least try to launch into the sun anyone I caught...

I too would like to know the context so that way I can probably be pissed off with you. I've heard that towards getting laid/getting a relationship. My personal rageahol inducing phrase is; "Love waits" THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU? Because you're capable? That's not the reason? THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU...

I quit smoking a year ago cold turkey. I tried patches and gum and all I ended up doing was using them more. I ended up doing it gradually. Start next week, only 9 a day. There has to be a time you found yourself putting something off that you actually wanted to do/finish for a cig. The week...

Probably the only reason I have had any success over the last year and a half is the fact that I have been watching him. I have learned a substantial amount about myself and our collective mind. It has helped me in more ways than I can imagine and has become a source of both rage and optimism...

My family ignored me almost entirely as well. Your words I have spoken exactly to myself. I can't even remember not being alone. If I actually saw the number of hours I spent leveling materia and other kinds of stupid bullshit on games I'd be liable to kill myself then and there. What I have...

26. I've never kissed a girl. Touched some T&A, but I was so busy coping with the fact that I couldn't keep my arms and legs still or my heart rate below marathon sprinting levels that I barely count it. No relationships either. I've hated myself with a passion as well. Am recovering. I quit...

Anyone else out there like me? Hi. Anyone who feels like they don't deserve love or friendship? I almost killed myself believing this. I still don't feel I deserve them, but I feel I am capable and that someone would be damned lucky to know me instead of another clone. A wonderful lie, but...

I'm a 26 year old virgin male and I only really started to care directly about the issue specifically recently. I've always been so incredibly shy that I simply just avoided girls/women and everyone generally. I blush so badly at the slightest praise from the opposite sex and I essentially have...