M_also_lonely
Well-known member
This has been a problem for me all the time.
I see someone making a beautiful painting, I want to be a painter.
I see someone doing complex mathematics, I want to be able to do that.
I see someone flying a fighter jet, I want to fly one.
I see a lecture in physics, I want to study physics.
I see someone making a software, I want to learn that.
This sort of nature did have a benefit.
I ended up learning: CAD, coding, building basic circuits, digital painting, photo editing, karate, business, cooking, cricket, football, music making, and so many other things.
But not an expert at any of them.
But I just can't settle. And its not only about what career I should pursue, but it is my inability to make a decision and focus on that while forgetting the rest.
For example, I spend eight days trying to understand this paper in computer science, which is not even my educational background. And as soon as I finally get a bit of understanding and start writing my conclusions, I find a video about a great project in CAD. So I install that software and work on that. Then halfway, I find a new upload by one of my favorite digital artists and I want to try out that project.
Its not some 5 things. It could be anything. But it is very easy for me to get distracted (not frustrated) and give up to do the next thing.
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The negative impact that it has had on me is that I ended up missing out on a few important competitive exams because I was so involved in taking my small, tiny business further. Which I knew was going to fail. Now I can't apply for them until next year, and I also lost interest in my business once I studied about one of the studies in one of the leading Space Research Organizations of my country.
I know I can almost never get a job there, but now I am interested in that.
But I know for sure that something else is going to distract me soon.
I missed out on potentially great job opportunities when I should have taken them.
This were just few examples.
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Back in the university, I couldn't decide where to go for lunch. Just lot of calculations going on.
Can't decide which shirt I want if I am given two similar options. etc.
I see someone making a beautiful painting, I want to be a painter.
I see someone doing complex mathematics, I want to be able to do that.
I see someone flying a fighter jet, I want to fly one.
I see a lecture in physics, I want to study physics.
I see someone making a software, I want to learn that.
This sort of nature did have a benefit.
I ended up learning: CAD, coding, building basic circuits, digital painting, photo editing, karate, business, cooking, cricket, football, music making, and so many other things.
But not an expert at any of them.
But I just can't settle. And its not only about what career I should pursue, but it is my inability to make a decision and focus on that while forgetting the rest.
For example, I spend eight days trying to understand this paper in computer science, which is not even my educational background. And as soon as I finally get a bit of understanding and start writing my conclusions, I find a video about a great project in CAD. So I install that software and work on that. Then halfway, I find a new upload by one of my favorite digital artists and I want to try out that project.
Its not some 5 things. It could be anything. But it is very easy for me to get distracted (not frustrated) and give up to do the next thing.
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The negative impact that it has had on me is that I ended up missing out on a few important competitive exams because I was so involved in taking my small, tiny business further. Which I knew was going to fail. Now I can't apply for them until next year, and I also lost interest in my business once I studied about one of the studies in one of the leading Space Research Organizations of my country.
I know I can almost never get a job there, but now I am interested in that.
But I know for sure that something else is going to distract me soon.
I missed out on potentially great job opportunities when I should have taken them.
This were just few examples.
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Back in the university, I couldn't decide where to go for lunch. Just lot of calculations going on.
Can't decide which shirt I want if I am given two similar options. etc.