SolveEtCoagula
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On both sides of the family, insomnia of varying intensities has been passed down for generations among other things; so I'm pretty used to getting less than enough sleep and being nocturnal. Normally I'll be awake all night til around 7 or 8 am and then crash til around 2 or so.
Nearly 6 or so months back I started working a regular day job refinishing cabinets and painting homes (interior/exterior). I gotta be up every morning by 5am and out the door by 6. Usually I work from 7-3:30/4.
At first I figured I just wasnt sleeping because my body needed to reset and adjust itself for mornings but it's been months now and each week I get seemingly less and less sleep. I had been nocturnal since as long as I can remember so maybe I still am adjusting, who knows?
Work had been pretty slow and i was doing maybe 30hrs weekly consistently until 2 weeks ago. Things picked up real fast and now we are up to our friggin eyeballs in cabinets and grouchy old people who lack the patience to appreciate the time we put into their nasty ass cabinets and walls. I'm putting in 45, nearly 50 hrs this week. Last week was 42. I'm only making 10 dollars an hour at an apprentice wage atm so I'm not rolling in cash like at all. Before I started this job I did A few years of food service. It's just a tad frustrating to think that I'm working 3 times as hard as I was beforehand and making less money too. Nearly 3 dollars an hour less which adds up.
For the most part tho I love my current job as it's way more satisfying/gratifying than any of my previous entry level jobs, I certainly get more respect from my folks n what have you. I enjoy what I do but I just cant get it off my mind. I lay down with maybe 4 or 5 hours to get some sleep and I just lay there half awake, deep in thought; practically daydreaming about work. I figured that would go away after a few weeks too, but it hasn't.
So for the past 2 weeks I've been running on caffeine, THC and Nicotine and been buzzing pretty hard most of the day even at work just to stay awake. Everytime I "wake up" I feel just a little more tired than I did when I laid down a few hours before. All I can do is lay still as can be and get lost in thought, re-running through the successes and failures of the day/week/month and thinking hard about what I'll be doing tomorrow; almost rehearsing tomorrow in my head rather than dreaming or sleeping. Some nights I might pass out but that's not usually until I've got maybe an hour to sleep on left.
Like I've said, I've had my share of sleepless nights for plenty of different reasons over the years but never have I been kept awake for so long by thoughts of work.
Anybody else ever have this issue?
Anybody got any ideas about sleep? Like, any idea at all really is appreciated.
Nearly 6 or so months back I started working a regular day job refinishing cabinets and painting homes (interior/exterior). I gotta be up every morning by 5am and out the door by 6. Usually I work from 7-3:30/4.
At first I figured I just wasnt sleeping because my body needed to reset and adjust itself for mornings but it's been months now and each week I get seemingly less and less sleep. I had been nocturnal since as long as I can remember so maybe I still am adjusting, who knows?
Work had been pretty slow and i was doing maybe 30hrs weekly consistently until 2 weeks ago. Things picked up real fast and now we are up to our friggin eyeballs in cabinets and grouchy old people who lack the patience to appreciate the time we put into their nasty ass cabinets and walls. I'm putting in 45, nearly 50 hrs this week. Last week was 42. I'm only making 10 dollars an hour at an apprentice wage atm so I'm not rolling in cash like at all. Before I started this job I did A few years of food service. It's just a tad frustrating to think that I'm working 3 times as hard as I was beforehand and making less money too. Nearly 3 dollars an hour less which adds up.
For the most part tho I love my current job as it's way more satisfying/gratifying than any of my previous entry level jobs, I certainly get more respect from my folks n what have you. I enjoy what I do but I just cant get it off my mind. I lay down with maybe 4 or 5 hours to get some sleep and I just lay there half awake, deep in thought; practically daydreaming about work. I figured that would go away after a few weeks too, but it hasn't.
So for the past 2 weeks I've been running on caffeine, THC and Nicotine and been buzzing pretty hard most of the day even at work just to stay awake. Everytime I "wake up" I feel just a little more tired than I did when I laid down a few hours before. All I can do is lay still as can be and get lost in thought, re-running through the successes and failures of the day/week/month and thinking hard about what I'll be doing tomorrow; almost rehearsing tomorrow in my head rather than dreaming or sleeping. Some nights I might pass out but that's not usually until I've got maybe an hour to sleep on left.
Like I've said, I've had my share of sleepless nights for plenty of different reasons over the years but never have I been kept awake for so long by thoughts of work.
Anybody else ever have this issue?
Anybody got any ideas about sleep? Like, any idea at all really is appreciated.