AmeNoKo
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Just looking to chat with fellow agoraphobes in this thread. Whether you've got it downright bad, or just passing flashes, feel free to talk in here. I'd like to meet more people who have this.
For me, I developed agoraphobia very badly after becoming aware of how much I'd screwed up my life around the time I was 21. I self-destructed for a while after I'd realized how far short I'd fallen in my dreams and hopes, and this built into what has been years of reclusive living. I am now 24.
Some things about me and my agoraphobia:
-I'm "room-bound." I still live with my mother and am very embarrassed about that, and can hardly even look at her anymore, let alone other people.
-I purposefully chose an overnight job so that I don't have to talk to people. I'm a street sweeper, so I have zero interaction with others.
-I am a college student, but all my courses are Online.
-I have a very hard time communicating with anyone anymore. I used to be very outspoken, but now I can hardly manage a Yes or No without doing something awkward, like touching my neck or nervous chuckling.
-I can't remember the last time I made eye contact with someone.
-I'm not a 'hoarder-lite' anymore, but alike many I tried to fill my room up with things I loved for a while to feel better. For me this was videogames, but I've since managed to remove most of this and am trying very hard to cut back on gaming even more.
It is not enjoyable living like this, and at this point I am trying very hard to break it. I just don't like being in this cramped darkness anymore.
So how about you?
For me, I developed agoraphobia very badly after becoming aware of how much I'd screwed up my life around the time I was 21. I self-destructed for a while after I'd realized how far short I'd fallen in my dreams and hopes, and this built into what has been years of reclusive living. I am now 24.
Some things about me and my agoraphobia:
-I'm "room-bound." I still live with my mother and am very embarrassed about that, and can hardly even look at her anymore, let alone other people.
-I purposefully chose an overnight job so that I don't have to talk to people. I'm a street sweeper, so I have zero interaction with others.
-I am a college student, but all my courses are Online.
-I have a very hard time communicating with anyone anymore. I used to be very outspoken, but now I can hardly manage a Yes or No without doing something awkward, like touching my neck or nervous chuckling.
-I can't remember the last time I made eye contact with someone.
-I'm not a 'hoarder-lite' anymore, but alike many I tried to fill my room up with things I loved for a while to feel better. For me this was videogames, but I've since managed to remove most of this and am trying very hard to cut back on gaming even more.
It is not enjoyable living like this, and at this point I am trying very hard to break it. I just don't like being in this cramped darkness anymore.
So how about you?